sure, it's a monday night, but i'm spending it as i'd spend a friday night or a saturday night of late: anxiety-ridden and rabidly refreshing archinect to see if anyone's posted anything mildly interesting.

i'll be starting grad school in a couple of weeks, and my insecurity about attaining my first professional degree in a field that values over-education and self-indulgent philosophizing has finally reached it's zenith. or it's nadir. i'm not quite sure which, and i think that alone illustrates why i'm so insecure about this whole thing to begin with.

over the past year i've been interning at a small firm and learning some practical stuff, and i've been trying to involve myself with the "design community" as much as possible. but beyond a superficial understanding of what's (maybe) good architecture and what sucks, i realize i have heaps to learn. maybe i'll pick up something on the 'nect tonight, but most likely i'll just read the sex threads, then bore myself to sleep thinking about some drawings i'm working on, then wake up and do it all again tomorrow.

god, i hope nobody's reading this crap.